Translating the term 'Racial Harmony Day' into Chinese nearly gave me a brain haemorrhage just now.

Came back from City Hall after doing a survey with commuters regarding Racial Harmony Day for our Project Work.Manz,didn't know doing surveys can be so tiring.There was this middle aged woman who asked me what is Racial Harmony Day in Chinese and I was kinda stunned.In the end,I cooked up some terms and she actually understood.Hmm,noticed that most yuppies are kinda snobbish.Well,I can't blame them.If I were them,I would scowl at the surveyor haha.

Wasted three days.Haiz,I just can't get myself to do my homework.HOW?Even though they are due first week of school next term,I can't stop myself from panicking.Am I mad?I don't wan't history to repeat itself again,i.e I don't want my intelligence to go downhill.Hey I don't make sense,brain malfuntioning again.Well,I used to be a top student,until something nasty happened..Anyway,no use dwelling on the past.

I think Friendster is a useless invention.Whenever I log onto Friendster,I will be reminded of how happy others are.Well,I have best friends and admirers but I just don't like others to be more fortunate than me.Am I being too selfish here?Sometimes I really think that I'm a very nasty and attitude girl,always spoiling my friends' mood and etc.I think I'm very spoilt too,even though I'm not rich.Why would I behave this way?Is it because something is lacking in my life?I like to be alone too,something which my parents think is not right.My friends normally want me to hang out with them,but most of the time,I decline their offers with stupid reasons.WHY WOULD I WANT TO DO THAT??I'm unsure too.Guys want me to go clubbing with them,I thought of that as an insult.Haiz,someone enlighten me please.Heck,please ignore this post.

Death can be so sudden and heart-breaking.

My Dad just called and cried.This is the first time that I heard him crying.My grandmother had passed away at 6.09pm.It was all so sudden and apparently,my Dad and his siblings are all taken aback by it.3 months ago,I've visited her and she was alive and well,even though she looked haggard.Then suddenly,she died in the hospital due to a fall.I never expected her to pass away that early,I meant,she was already 80plus,but she was a strong and fierce woman.I've always remember that during my childhood days,I would always go to her house and sat on the swings near it.Surrounding the swings were a picturesque garden,full of beautiful purple flowers.The evening mist never fails to create a sense of mystery in the air.This scene is like the setting in my favourite storybook during my childhood days-The Secret Garden.Oh my,how I wished I could return back to those times,when I knew nothing about love and life,and would only know how to enjoy my life with my then youthful parents..

I really hate it when people all around me started to passed away.Its a really horrible feeling.I have had two close relatives that passed away this year.Sometimes I really wonder when my time will come.Life is full of unpredictable events,an accident or a stroke could just take your life in a matter of seconds.Illnesses like cancer takes longer,and personally I prefer the former,whereby I have lesser time to recall all the unpleasant moments in life and thus less physical and mental sufferings.Of course,I would utmost choose to die of old age,preferably in my sleep,so that I can leave the world in my secret garden.If I die due to an accident,then my last moments will much preferred to be spent in the arms of my loved ones,especially my mum and whoever that will be my partner in life.Then hopefully I will leave the world without much hatred or regrets.

Then again,I tend to have really morbid and unconventional thoughts regarding to death.Human tends to fantasize alot,especially when they are alone or bored.I've thought of a manner to die,but it sounds really sadistic and certainly not for those who are sencetive.It cannot happen in reality though,but no harm thinking about it.

Here it goes.It is close to sunset where the skies are getting gloomier.A black car will just bump onto me.Then I'll flipped gracefully over the car and land with a soft thud on the ground.My head will be face up but slightly tilt to the left.My arms and legs will be slightly outstretched too.I will be wearing a white dress with pink floral patterns and white pumps.A great pool of blood will start forming around me.Just then,thunders boomed,as though to grief for my death.Raindrops will then start falling on the mortal earth before it turns to a downpour,diluting the pool of blood as a result.I want my skin to look freaky pale at the scene as well.Hmm,and I want all this to be witnessed by Feng.Everyone will stare at me,including him.Wow,what a way to die...

I finally dragged myself to the computer and check my mails.What a tiring and mentally draining week man.I'm glad I've managed to pull through and am still alive in my dingy but cozy home.Shall summarise what I did this week then.

Actually there is not much to summarise because what I did everyday is so routine!Pretty much covered in my past entries.Well,something worth mentioning was that I went for an interview at the thirteenth storey('unlucky' number eh) at MOE on Wednesday.It was an interview for an attachment for the A*Star Research Institute,specifically,the Institute of Bioengineering and Nanotechnology sector.I know it sounds way chim but anyway to sum it up,I'm an interviewee for the attachment programme.I'm surprise I'm shortlisted for the interview because my academic results wasn't as impressive as the other applicants in my school.It was a nerve wrecking experience because I'm late for the interview and I didn't really prepare beforehand.When I enter the lounge area,a crowd in grey uniforms greeted me.I realised my 'opponents' vying with me for the limited vacancies in the attachment programmes were from NJC.My legs went numb and I knew I was the odd one out there.I badly want to be swallowed by the ground but I knew I got nothing to lose anyway.My partner for the interview was a girl from NJ and she really sha ren bu jian xie.The scientific terms she bombarded were enough to kill me,leaving me with a miserable speech to impress the interviewer.I really felt like a 'country pumpkin' among them but heck,its over anyway.

I got back my second Bio test papers and I'm one of the fortunate few in my class that passed!So happy la!The level did badly for this test and the statistics of the number of people who passed were something that we should not be proud of.Even though I passed by a short margin,I'm really happy because at least I know that I had improved.Sometimes,you have to be contented with the small things in life.Remember,small things accumulate,if you add them up altogether,you will realise that your life is a joyful and meaningful one..

Got back my GP test results today!There were only 4 passes in my class and I'm not one of them.Pathetic right?The top in my class got like 4 more marks than me only lor.Anyway,its a test on comprehension and it was kinda difficult to understand the passage.I guess my class ought to speak more English and read more books to improve their vocab!You can hear people blabbering in Mandarin even during GP lessons>.<

I stink badly,must be a cue for me to bathe now.Take care everybody,ciao...=)

Argh anybody heard the song,Dani California by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers?ITS PLAYING ON REPEAT MODE IN MY HEAD!!!The song is super addictive manz,I really like it alot.Hmm the chorus of that song is ringing in my head now..

Went to Courts just now to check out the price of MP3 players.The average price is around $200 plus.Still so expensive right??I was expecting the price to drop though.I don't really want an Ipod Nano because I rather go for quality than appearances.Hmm I think I will save up my money for a Creative MP3 player.Its pretty attractive for my liking and the space is kinda reasonable.Best of all,its $100 cheaper than Ipod Nano!Haha,I also saw some rather cheap players but the brand is like super ulu lah,so I don't think I can trust them.

Bought three pair of earrings.Kinda regret buying them because the design looks abit simple la,like those coloured by three years old kiddos.Haiz,waste money again.Ok my mum just nagged at me again.Gotta go now..bye for now!

No school today!(: Not very sure why there is no school for JJ today but I think its due to the Polling Day afew weeks ago.Slept till 12.40pm.I'm super tired for the past one week due to the numerous homework and tests/SPA. Biology SPA is relatively easy,but I'm kinda afraid of my carelessness.Hope I don't do as badly as my O Level Bio prac haha.

Chem test was easier than the first one but I can't say I can ace in it because I experienced temporary memory loss during the test!It always happen to me during tests or exams,especially during Bio and Chem tests.I knew how to answer the question but I always have a mental block!Its affecting me quite badly because precious marks were lost due to that.I could have passed my previous tests if I could have been more clear headed.Haiz..

Did PW with my group members last night.Haha we could not concentrate because we were freaking tired after the long day.End up crapping though,but we managed to improve on our GPP a tweeny bit.We went arcade after that!Played Daytona 2 with Wendy and Chong Min.Haha I sux la but its a great way to destress.Should have done that more often manz hehe.

Gonna read through my Bio and Maths lecture notes later.I must utilise my weekend well!I'm kinda guilty that I have been procrastinating for the past few weeks and slacking over the weekends.I must put an end to it this week!Even though Photosynthesis and Sequences and Series are stupid and dry topics(I practically slept my way through lectures on these topics),they are still part of my A level syllabus.Therefore,I must have a battlefield mindset and conquer these topics!SHA REN BU JIAN XIE!

I have a sudden infatuation with Chinese songs,urgh.

No school tomorrow because its Vesak day!But that doesn't meant that I'm totally free as I need to meet up with my PW mates to discuss about our GPP.Right after that,I may need to meet up with Yiting and gang to do our JJINDOGU(don't know the spelling).Argh,stress sia need to complete many assignments plus a whole load of catching up within three days.

Going for 4B's class chalet on Saturday!Kinda looking forward to the meeting because it has been some time since I've met up with my former classmates.Anticipating to meet Yolanda too!Soo long never see her already manz,wonder how she is.Actually not that long la,perhaps 1 month?haha(:

Since Saturday is off,I can only do my catching up on Sunday!Biology is alright so far but I'm kinda stagnant in Chem.Its so freaking chim la!And I can't help dozing off during lectures today because I'm so freaking tired doing my Maths assignment the night before.Speaking of which,I think I sort of overcome my fear for Maths!Actually the cliche saying of 'Practise makes perfect' make alot of sense.It was after doing and practising my tutorials that I fully grasp hold of the concepts for the topic.I felt a great sense of satisfaction after completing the tutorials all by myself manz!Three cheers!(:

Okay got to go now.Hope my fetish for Superwoman(the song,like duh!) ceased..