SIMPLY NOSTALGIA!!!





That was me 1.5 years back!Chanced upon those photos when I was browsing through mypicgallery.Can't imagine how much I have changed>.< No longer a bespectacled girl(that spec looks so over) with stumpy ponytail and oversized uniform haha.Now I'm this:



The lighting makes me look great haha.In real life I look pale and anorexic leh.But anyway,love yourself!I so <3 myself =)

Its been sometimes since I met up with Yolanda!Now we are in different schools,sighs..Miss those days in FMSS when she will help me refill my waterbottle during recess,let me copy her homework(LOL),clarify my doubts in Maths,listen to my rants etc..Now we only sms each other everyday to keep in contact.Haiz,MEET UP TO COLLECT Os CERT OKAYS?

Gotta redo PI plus revise my Maths and Biology.Mum say she is gonna buy me a study table later!!!First time in the 17 years of my life that I have a proper study table leh.Hahas things gonna be fine for me=)Ciaos~

TGIF WOO HOO HOO!(:(:(:

Exceptionally happy today because I just finished my GP and Economics test.Think I flunk it but anyway its over and I shall not dwell upon it.So sweaty now,but too lazy to bathe haha.Oh yes,as expected,I failed my Maths test as well.BOO HOO!Actually I kinda predict that I will fail badly so I took the failure quite lightly.Just that two failures in a row is abit too much for my poor little soul..*roll eyes*

Like what Chin Siang said, ''Shi bai shi cheng gong zi mu''.Sounds cliche but indeed every word of it is true.Take setbacks as a stepping ground to bigger things.I may have failed my Bio and Maths tests now,but who knows,maybe next time I will improve by many folds.Just as long as I'm determined and focused,I believe I can do better than 8pointers.Haha abit too ambitious but anything could happen la.

Procrastination-MY KILLER.Just when I thought I was born stupid,someone tells me that the extent of my procrastination,which affect my results, is abit too extreme.For example,for my Bio test,I only studied it one day before the actual test.I so badly wanted to study it over a period of time but the demon always make sure something crops up and attract my attention.As you know,my attention span last for a few seconds,guess how many time I have been lured by the demon from my revision.Can someone provide me with a remedy to solve this problem?

I must edit my PI once again.Don't know how many times I must edit it lor.Ms Liow said that my idea of bringing massage chairs into blah blah blah is not really feasible.Hiaz,I hate to do computer stuffs manz.I'm already so myopic(literally) and I think my eyes had suffered much for the past few weeks.Think I need to go make a new spectacle.Does fishtank specs suits me?

I just finished my Project Work PI!YAY!!!Took 2 hours to amend it,dang beat now.Well,no lessons for JJC today because our school has been used as a nomination centre for the General Elections. Watched CNA's coverage on the GE, seems like its gonna be another boring year for the voters.Well,not gonna elaborate lest I got sued by the authorities..

Two tests tomorrow-Economics and GP.I'm more worried for Econs because I'm confused over the terms used and the structure of the essays. Oh ya,I failed my Biology test )= I'm not surprised because I simply wrote a whole load of rubbish for the answers and I procrastinate in my studying of the subject. 38.2% of my class passed the test,which means over half the class failed.Not so bad for me eh?Hehe..

I'm in love with this Chinese song from a male artiste called Cao Ge. Well I don't listen to Chinese songs but this one caught my attention because Zhiyang from Campus Superstar sang it in the finals. The song's name is Superwoman and its a super difficult song to sing due to the many singing techniques required.Anyway,here is the lyrics.

Early In The Morning, I Put Breakfast At Your Table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑着的你
还能够　做些什么代替我的歉意
总是望着我　小心翼翼 顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

You Were My Super Woman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human Mmmm
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh~ Baby~ Baby~
You Fought Your Way Through The Rush Hour
Try To Make It Home Just For Me
月光下静静靠着彼此　只求夜长一点

有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什么时候回头　都有你的笑容 是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

You Were My Super Woman
Ooh~ Ho~
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human Er He~
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh~ Baby~

是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的 Super Woman 没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬

You Were My Super Woman
Ooh~ Ho~
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (是我只是一个 只是一个人)
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 He-Ooh~

If You Feel It In Your Heart And You Understand Me.
STOP Right Where You Are, Everybody Sing Along With Me. You Were My Super Woman
Ooh~ Ho~
安静的在身边 (在身边)　无条件给我 (无条件给我)　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (Hai Human， Hu Hu Hu Hu Man~)
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

You Were My Super WomanOoh~ Oh Yes You Are
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (Human) Mmm Mmm~
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

Dang tired!Haha.I skipped CCA today so that I can study for my Chemistry test tomorrow.Heard that it is pretty difficult especially since it is a 45mins paper.Well,I felt some pangs of guilt after skipping CCA for two consequtive weeks for the same freaking reason,i.e.,to study for some tests that contribute to a tweeny percentage for our year end results.Anyway,my classmates cum CCA mates are not going as well so I guess its alright ( :

I'm super nervous for my Chem test!I've never passed Chem during my years in Sec 3 and 4(guess I was lucky during my Os) and I don't want to repeat the trend again.Its demoralising to fail Chem now since I'm a pure Chem student and I'm supposed to do better than my sub-chem classmates.Anyway,guess all I could do is to mug and give my best in it.Keeping my fingers crossed...

I'm feeling kinda lively and upbeat these few days,a contrast to my mood as compared to the past weekend.I thought that I was just a stranger to everybody's world-someone who's presence was insignificant,someone who doesn't make any impact in her friends lives,and someone who doesn't have any 'good' friends.However,I was glad to say that those are misconceptions I had for myself.I was pretty angered by a human being a few days ago and I wondered whether my life is destinied to have such friends that keeps getting me irritated.However,from this incident,I have discovered true friends that are there for me without asking for anything in return.These are friends that I would like to have(like duh) for the rest of my life!I guess God is really kind to me.When He sees me getting all fed up with annoying souls,He calms me down and put friends around me to cheer me up.It is so 'qiao' that Wendy,Hon Mun and shucks,forgot who is the third person,called me at the same day when I was angered,to chat.Especially Wendy,can talk for hours without stop,haha.And also,some people whom I have lost contact suddenly messaged me and ask me how I'm doing.Its really nice to know you guys and keep in contact always kays?

I like going to school.I'm not lying yeah.I'm glad that I have my own clique in school and they are really funny people!My lifestyle in JJ is completely different from that in FMSS and I'm glad that I can have a change at last.I'm so not going to be bothered by my past now because I had straighthen out my thinking.All the Feng,confrontation and becoming enemies like kiddos incidents were history.I'm going to live for my beliefs,my passion,and myself.

Yozzie,back again!=)=)=)

Just finished my Biology tutorials.Had a hard time understanding the various types of carbohydrates because I don't like to look at things at the micro level.Its plain stupidity la in my humble opinion but too bad the syllabus is set in that way.Need to finish my Econs essay later plus reading up of some notes.And also(I know you are not suppose to start your sentence with 'and' but I jolly well like to do that) I need to mug for my Chinese and Chemistry class tests which is on Monday.The Bio test on last Thursday was a killer.I don't understand the question for the structured essay and all I could do was to crap my way through.Hmm,I think Bio=fail.

Do you believe in a thing called fate?Just when I thought its freaky enough to spot Feng from a SBS bus right after my slumber,I spot his friend,whom is my ex,on my way to school!Ok,I was trying to be lame on that day and decided to take MRT to school(I usually take a bus).I dashed inside the train just in the nick of time when the door is closing.I was standing there like a jebroni,not knowing that he is just beside me!It was until when the train reached Jurong East that I turned around and saw him face to face.Imagine my reaction then!I was like in extreme shock because I could not believe the level of affinity I had with them.Wonder who I will meet next..

Right now I'm doubting the quality of friendship I had with this person.Lets call this person XXX(hint:this person is from the same sec sch and JC as me).I always feel angry,frustrated and blah blah blah whenever I'm with this person because he/she(to protect the person's identity) never fails to spoil my mood at the end of the day.The words that he/she speak is worse than poison at times.Will you degrade your friend whenever she is feeling discouraged?No right?Well,he/she will.Will you blow your own trumpet in front of your friend?Will you indirectly insult her just because you feel like it?All these 'immoral' actions are all committed by him/her.Whether its intentional of unintentional,I got enough.Even a close friend of mine has the same sentiments with me.Thats why I'm ignoring his/her calls because I don't want to associate myself with this 'grade' of friends.You know who you are because I know you will read my entry.Anyway,I will never ask for help from you again because I don't want you to get a foothold.It will be best if you keep your bloody comments to yourself because I'm not interested and so is everyone.Thank you.

Phew,I finally have some time for myself to reflect on my week and certain scraps of memories.It has been really busy as usual and I guess this JC life has taken its toil on me.

I'm glad that my life in JJ has changed for the better.I'm currently with this group of girls in my class.They are really nice and outgoing!Its interesting to note their conversations and stuffs because you will be amazed at how different their culture and thinking is that from English mission schools like FMSS or ACJC.Personally,I kinda prefer the former because you can feel their sincerity when they are talking to you and you know that they are not just entertaining you.So yeah,hopes that it will continue to be this fun!

Back to studies,I'm about to get into my mugging mode because there are topical tests for Biology,Maths and Chemistry for the next two weeks.Frankly speaking,I'm only 70% awake during the lectures(yes,I'm a bad girl) and I think I will have a panic attack soon.YIKES,HOW??Guess I will have to deplete the Earth's of its fossil fuel because I'm gonna burn the midnight oil everyday.Ok,I know its not the least bit funny.

I guess I'm over with Feng.I'm kinda relieved that I can put all the saga behind me and continue to focus on my studies.I agreed that at times,my thinking is kinda immature,but right now,my decision has been made and I'm happy with it.I'm a brand new person from now on!=)

Phew,I finally have some time for myself to reflect on my week and certain scraps of memories.It has been really busy as usual and I guess this JC life has taken its toil on me.

I'm glad that my life in JJ has changed for the better.I'm currently with this group of girls in my class.They are really nice and outgoing!Its interesting to note their conversations and stuffs because you will be amazed at how different their culture and thinking is that from English mission schools like FMSS or ACJC.Personally,I kinda prefer the former because you can feel their sincerity when they are talking to you and you know that they are not just entertaining you.So yeah,hopes that it will continue to be this fun!

Back to studies,I'm about to get into my mugging mode because there are topical tests for Biology,Maths and Chemistry for the next two weeks.Frankly speaking,I'm only 70% awake during the lectures(yes,I'm a bad girl) and I think I will have a panic attack soon.YIKES,HOW??Guess I will have to deplete the Earth's of its fossil fuel because I'm gonna burn the midnight oil everyday.Ok,I know its not the least bit funny.

I guess I'm over with Feng.I'm kinda relieved that I can put all the saga behind me and continue to focus on my studies.I agreed that at times,my thinking is kinda immature,but right now,my decision has been made and I'm happy with it.I'm a brand new person from now on!=)

I chanced upon a christmas card sent by her last year when I was clearing up my wardrobe.This is what she wrote:

''Friendship plant story?Let me tell you sth.Every gardener eishes he/she could be the plant,enjoying the sun,no worries.Well pat,I pray the friendship plant between us will never die no matter what happens.I know your mood always changes,but believe me,I have experienced alot these 3 years.So whatever the problem/depressed you are and you don't feel like talking,please please write 2 me.I love to hear from you.About yourmlife and I.I promise only 2 listen n never interfere.I hope you can trust me after so long.You are the only fren that had never change with the season.And,I love U!,especially your 'lame-ness''.no one can replace!=)

Hi!Thanks 4 being my great fren these 3 years.I never regret knowing you.I can still remember our chinese lessons which were free periiods,our recesses together,our morale education projects together.Through it all,I've come 2 knowyou more.And frankly I must say,you have a very very unique talent in u though you may not realised it.In that,no one can compete with u because no one will ever win.So pat,you must always be yourself no matter how the world competes to be the best.In my life,you are the best and no1 can replace.Remember the <3.

Loving u always,
_______=)

I felt guilty reading what she wrote in the card.We became enemies soon after the card was sent due to some misunderstandings.Are they misunderstandings?Or was it just my immature understanding of the whole matter?I wanted to befriend her again but I'm afraid of her status now.Is she still with Feng?I don't want her to be with him!If I'm her friend,she should break up with him for my sake right?

Perhaps I'm just plain selfish.

Oh man,everytime I made it a point to blog,all my ideas run out>.<

Ok I'm so gonna rant again!I SHOULD HAVE CHOOSE TO GO TO A POLY INSTEAD!After several thoughts,I have a feeling that I'm made to excel in a poly.I know it sounds weird but I detest the life of being in a JC.I'm the sort that can't handle stress well and I tend to lose out alot when it comes to discipline.Yeah,being in a poly requires that too,but not that much right?

Too bad its all too late now.I should be more decisive and not get swayed over the slighest comment.I guess the reason why I chose to be in a JC is because of the influence of my peers.We often said JC=70% chance in Uni.JC=better future prospects.But we often neglect the fact that JC=no life.Well,you might oppose to that comment but for me,JC equates to no life.After being in a JC for 3 months or so,everyday was just lectures,tutorials,homework,revision,eat,sleep.NO PLAY!I'm worried that I would not have the endurance to put up with this lifestyle for the next 2 years man.SHOULD HAVE GONE TO CHEMICAL ENGINEERING LA!

End of rantings.I just came back from a shopping trip with my mummy.I bought a new bag for school.Its brown in colour and the design is quite simple.Sometimes simplicity is bliss.Oh whatever.Anyway,it cost $27 and I think its quite expensive for such a simple design.My mum said that my previous school bag looks worn out and I had been using my sister bag as substitute for quite a while now.That's why she bought me that bag.Well,I'm quite touched actually because she doesn't have any money to spend on herself and yet she chose to put me as her first priority.That's how great a mother's love can be.Well,I might dread my current JC life now but because of my mum,I must endure this torturous journey.Courage is doing something despite of fear right?(or whatever it is,I've forgotten)

Oh well,I've not reply her sms for 5 days already.Really don't know what to reply.I have alot of questions to ask her but I don't know how to phrase it properly.Am I afraid that her replies might hurt me deeply?Am I into escapism?I must be running away from reality then.Y told me that its not a loss not to have her as a friend,but I still feel rather uneasy.I need something from her right?What is it then?Assurance?Confidence?I need some serious thinking..

Gonna have a bath now.Will be mugging for my Biology later.Peace out..