Hacked.

As promised,here are the links to the reverse playback versions of Stairway to Heaven.

http://www.reversespeech.com/rev/stairback.Mp3

http://www.reversespeech.com/rev/stairrev.Mp3

Haha,ENJOY.

Well the song that is currenly playing right now is not a Christian song(just because the song mentioned about God doesn't mean it is a Christian song,and man,why did I even bother to explain).It is a mainstream song that question whether God really exist and how would it be like if we were to meet him.Hmm,I kinda like Joan Osborne's vocals,its really soothing and she sounds like Jewel(the singer,not that gem).

What if God was one of us?Haha I'm think of that too.Would it be creepy if the person sitting beside you in the bus is actually God Himself?Man,I love this song!=) Kinda hooked to it now.I love listening to songs and my favourite genre is rock.So expect to hear mostly rock songs in my blog.

Speaking of songs,if you had read my previous entry,you will have a rough idea of what backmasking is.Anyway,due to my curiousity,I have researched on which is the most popular backmasked songs in the world and the accolades goes to Stairway of Heaven by Led Zeppelin.MAN DON'T LISTEN TO THE REVERSE VERSION OF THE SONG ALONE OR IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT OR YOU WILL END UP LIKE ME!Haha true leh(my haha sounds kinda forceful).It is a perfectly normal and sweet song when it is played in the normal way(in fact the lyrics of the song is about hope and stuff) but when you try to be kaypoh(like me) and play the song backwards,you will get the shock of your life.I'm not joking or exaggerating,I'm serious.I'll advise you not to listen to the reverse version of the song if you are the sort that freak out easily.*SPOILER AHEAD*If you are curious about it yet you don't dare to listen,well I can tell you how the reverse version sounds like:There are torture sounds and they get louder as the song is played(why is it so?).There is a satanic message towards the end of the song but I won't write it here because I don't want to get certain people offended.Well overall it is really CREEPY(much more creepier than the already-very-creepy twinkle twinkle little star) and the 'voice' is really disturbing.Towards the end of the song,I got so disturbed and paranoid by the deep and robotic 'voice' that I shut down my computer.That's the severity so I really advise you not to listen to it unless you are mentally prepared.

Will help you guys find the link to the reverse version of Stairway to Heaven(or you can DIY and play the original song backward by using windows sound recorder).All the best...*cunning smile*

I was browsing through this forum online and I've discovered from one of the thread that if you play the song Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars backwards,you can hear the message 'I wished there were no Allah'.Apparently the culprit is from the verse 'How I wonder what you are'.Hmm the works of freemasons?Or was it just a coincidence?Anyway,being the busybody,I went to the link provided to listen to the reversed and original version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars sang by a 6 years old girl and man was I spooked!It sounds so creepy when it was played reversed and I could feel my hair standing.Don't play that song backwards in the middle of the night okays,argh.

I went to Wikipedia to search for the list of songs with backmasked messages and I was astonished that there are so many songs with it.One of them is my favourite song of all time,Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana.I've listen to that songs for countless time but I didn't know it actually carries a hidden message.Hmm cool but don't know why I find it rather spooky as well.What I thought was a harmless song like Twinkle Twinkle Little Star or Smells Like Teen Spirit could actually carry such a warped meaning.Well if you wanna know more,you can go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_backmasked_messages

Not in the mood to write much today.Hmm the holidays are ending soon and I'm just so sad!Well guess I can do nothing about it.

I simply love the song that is playing on my blog now!If you are observant enough,the title of the song is the title of my blog=) The title seems like a paradox- how can you break the night with colours?? Perhaps there are hidden meanings behind the title,just like you have to read between the lines to many things in life,like for example, your English comprehension,people's mind etc...I'm crapping=

I feel like eating fillet-o-fish burger now.Argh must control the urge!Fillet-o-fish is the only burger I will eat from Mac simply because I like killing fishes.All right I think there is something wrong with my brain tonight..Ciao.

Hiyaaaah my favourite band from Superband was eliminated =(

I'm watching one of the World Cup match now,Saudi Arabia vs Ukraine(I can see the sian look on your face).No,I don't have cable television but hey,I can received the Malaysian channels quite clearly!Its pretty weird because recently there were disputes over whether Starhub purposely disrupt the feeder to the malaysian channel so that viewers can't make out the grainy images,and in turn had to subscribe to Starhub for live matches.

I'm going to stay up all night to finish my Maths holiday assignment!Anyway I'm feeling rather energetic after having an afternoon nap.So thats all for today,gonna continue watching my match now!=)

I think my life is utmost miserable.

My mum was on the phone with her friend just now and she was already planning on how to get a divorce with my Dad?Her evidence right now was a photo of my Dad caught in his act.Wah kaoz this sucks real bad.

She is trying to 'catch' my Dad again and she told me not to tip him off or else she will give me afew tight slaps?I don't know what to feel right now.Should I be feeling upset because my parents really screwed up their life and in turn,caused mine to be screwed as well,or should I be feeling glad that there is going to be a fullstop to these nonsenses?The cliche saying that the children suffer the most in a divorced family is true.I'm now beginning to feel the pain.

My sis is still sleeping at this hour and she is still oblivious to the fact that my parents will go separate ways real soon.Well she is hardly at home and the happy-go-lucky sort so I guess it is inevitable that she didn't noticed the tension in the air.Well can't blame her.Actually I hope I can be like her,being much 'cooler' and less tensed up.I wished that I would not worried about whats happening around me and mind my own business instead.Haiz.

Did I bore you guys?In the depressed mode now.Well not exactly that depressed,just that if I don't get into that mode now,I will feel kinda guilty that I'm not doing anything to help my parents.Really admire you people whom are born with a silver spoon in your mouth and has a happy family.You guys can afford to learn many things when you are young and has a shelter which you can be proud of.Yet you people can still complain about not having this and that.Hmm,wait till you are in my shoes.

Nobody will understand what I had gone through so far.Do you know that I had to be seperated from my parents at a tender age and live in a hostel for girls with problematic families when my parents first started their war with each other?I have simply no chance to learn how to ride a bike,learn how to swim or play with soft toys or barbie dolls.All I could do was to do my homework or talk to myself.When I was finally released from the prison,I still don't get the chance as my parents simply don't have the money.Well,I don't blame them,just that I felt that my childhood was rather deprived.Haha,I guess some of you guys are shocked right?I don't usually tell people about my life story,but I felt this is the best time to let you guys share my sorrows..

Hmm,my friends commented that my temper is abit off nowadays.Sorry,really don't mean it.Please tolerate it for the time being okay?I just don't like to be pretentious,going around putting a mask telling others how happy I am(Side note:Nep just disrupt my thoughts this moment) when I'm nursing my wounds inside.I show what I'm feeling and if you see me with a black face,remember to give in to me=) (okay I just contradict myself somehow by putting that smiley)

Going to shop for Yo's birthday present with TE tomorrow.Really pissed off with her again so I tell TE the budget for her present this year is going to be ten bucks.Haha mean right?Don't care!Those who offended me will suffer.Anyway sincerity is the one that counts right?Hmm..

Hello everyone!This entry is a special one because I'm posting this from Yolanda's house!Yeah I'm having a homework marathon in her house right now,which means I'm staying over for the night.Haha,kinda surprised that my mum actually allows me to stay over.Well,this means that I'm all grown up now :)

Yo's keyboard is so difficult to type.The buttons are so deep in and you need twice the energy to press a single button.Well sounds bo liao I know.I so freaking admire her house la.Its like ten times larger than mine and there is a roof top garden over my head.She is so rich la.Haiz,hopefully I can find some rich guy to marry and be a rich tai tai in the future.Oh well just kidding haha.

Spent the entire day doing PW just now.As usual we crapped and play alot.I seriously freaking dislike PW!!!I suddenly felt like cursing but the feeling just wear off.Yeah now feeling much appeased and tranquil.Normally you will feel better after a good night's sleep or when you really cry it out.Both methods work the best for me.The latter explains why my eyes always look 'weird' haha.Being the crybaby,I think I cry an average of once every 3 days?Don't know why I like to cry la,hmm.

I think I got to go now.My creative juices are not flowing today=( Take care everybody and byebye!

Reformatted my computer!Took like 3 hours to complete everything??Well at least I can post up my entries now without the fear of my computer being jammed.

Practically slacked the whole day.I'm so not motivated to do my homework and study!If this goes on,I think I will have to repeat JC1 again.Argh,somebody point a gun at my head and pull the trigger okay.I need to be shot.

I'm in the worst of all moods now,pardon me if I sound rude.I'm worried for my mental health you know.Basically I behaved like a madwoman when I'm angered or offended and there is no stop to it until I get really exhausted metally or physically.I think my temperamental nature is due to the genes that I had inherited.Both my parents have really nasty temper so (un)fortunately,I also kenna.I'm worried that I will make a fool out of myself when I get into that 'trance' so currently,I'm trying to be more tolerance of the things around me.

Sometimes I really think that I'm a little loose in my head.Like for example,I will get really fed up when I'm being ignored or when someone passed a harmless remark like,'I don't think so leh'.I will really flare when those things accumulate unintentionally/intentionally.Even when I knew that it wasn't that person(s)' fault,I will still want to be angry with them because I felt that it was my right to be angry and they should make up for my unhappiness because they are the ones that 'instigate' me to be angry.Argh!

Now I don't even know what I'm angry about.I got irritated by people around me easily.Sometimes I felt that the people I'm with are not being thoughtful to me.Can't they just please me or something?Being the emotional sort(very contradictory to my behaviour),I would just shut myself out from people easily.I don't want to waste my tears on people who aren't worth it.

I know it is very inconsiderate and definitely un-gentlemanly to 'scold' your friends in your blog but I buay tahan already!I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE BEING LATE!!!I'm not pin pointing anyone(but maybe I will still pick out certain individuals) but I'm addressing this in general.If you go out with me,DON'T BE LATE!Or you will see me sulking the whole day as though the whole world owns me money.Now I'm going to be real nasty.Two days ago,I went out with Yo and her sister,Tianen and Nep.I arrived punctually by the way.Tianen was late for 15mins(at least he told me beforehand that he is going to be late,but actually I don't really see the use of it).I was slightly pissed off but not that much yet.Then I waited like 45mins for Yo and her sister?!!!And worst of all I didn't eat anything for the whole day because I was broke.If not for her sister,I will erupt like a volcano and be a real scary girl.I mean,based on their intellect,they should know what is being time concious right?This is not the first time I have waited longer than 45mins for her and reminded her about it lor!I just don't feel justified.Man,now I really feel pissed when I think about it. Yeah,I'm real petty,and I'm fine being one.

Enough of my rants.Okay I have thoughts of starting another but I think its time to exercise some self restraint.Argh why am I so mad at everyone??Guess there is too much hatred in my heart.I wished that I can be like Mother Theresa,ever so peaceful and calm,no vengeance and whatever so.How I wished I could be a baby,so innocent and ignorant.Hmm..

Received a sms from Wen.Here it goes:
I use my mum hp...Today is my birthday,i wish that God will bless you and help you in every area of yr life!When u free?Are u free this coming sat?wanna come to church?i really long time never see u liao..i know that you dun really feel like coming,but just wanna let u know tt God loves u!

Mixed emotions I had.Initially I felt the anger rising in my stomach because she asked me to go church!But after a while,I checked the details of the message and realised that she reserved her birthday wishes for me at the stroke of midnight on her birthday.Felt abit touched la,and guilty because I've actually forgotten about her birthday.Sighs,maybe its time for me to be more thoughtful to others as well.I've discovered that I'm the sort that:-

1.Don't remember birthdays
2.Never initiate to call others
3.Don't like to initiate a conversation on msn
4.Scold others for no apparent reason
5.Have a tendency to complain about others and in some cases,being found out by them(hehehe)

GREAT,just told Hon Mun something 'disturbing' about myself.He told me to expect a phone call from him this morning?And its like the 4515444166356th time that I've told him about my distaste on talking on the phone?

Its gonna be a short post.

Finished doing my Maths Assignment 7A.Took aeons to do it.Well,at least I bother to do it haha.Felt quite satisfied as I finally managed to get something done.Hmm,think I'm gonna have a homework marathon starting from tomorrow.No more slacking=(

Jackson called me just now(yes,at this time).I was very surprised that he would called me after not being in contact for like one year.Well,we chatted about the good times but towards the end of the conversation,I could sense that he was trying to persuade me to go to his church.For your information,I'm currently a free thinker and just like any non-believer,am trying to dodge the really persistent believers who intend to bring me to their church.I mean,its kinda irritating that the reason why they even bother to talk to you is because they wanted you to join their church and stuff.Their hidden agenda is super obvious la,hope they brush up on their skills soon.Well,I'm not talking about Jackson here.I knew he really cares about me,just that I'm abit pissed when he told me he is now in New Creation.Hmm..

I knew some of you are like 'what?you are a non believer meh?'.Haha,your reaction is expected.I'm feeling quite guilty that I've mislead some of you into thinking that I'm a Christian.I used to be one,but that was history.Was really pissed off with everything pertaining to CHC 9 months ago.Time passed real quickly eh?Been a non believer for 9 months now,so far so good.I'm putting it straight in your face that I didn't lied about being a believer.So if you are buay song about it and think that I'm disgracing your religion,get your facts right.I think you know who you are ba.

Maths remedial tomorrow!Well,today I meant.Good news,might be watching The Omen or Silent Hill with Yolanda and her sister(and more people I hope) this week.When is the last time I had watched a movie?

Patricia, your sense of humor is Dark Humor

There are some things some people don't even talk about. But you somehow manage to make jokes about them. Your humor type is dark and you never met a topic that was too sacred. It's not that you're twisted (well, maybe a little); you just believe that laughter is the universal healer. There's always room to lighten the mood. From broken hearts to broken limbs to death itself, you are willing to go where few others dare to venture. Whether you're watching Evil Dead 2 for the 58th time or whipping out another one of your morgue jokes, it's always refreshing for others to catch a glimpse through your cracked lens.


Haha as expected,my sense of humour is dark.Kinda accurate leh.But anyway,there is a cat outside my doorstep now!!!Out of point I should say but I'm abit worried because this particular cat happens to hang outside my house at this time of the day everyday!There is a bell hanging around its neck and I would know whether the cat has paid me a visit by listening to the faint tinkling sound.Eerie,I suppose but this add to the excitement of my already-very-dark history of my house hehe.Will tell you guys about it some other day..

Back to my blog.I have decided to stick to this skin permanently.Hmm do you like the song?Its a pretty catchy song and it is featured in the Ipod Shuffle adverstisement some years back.I think some of you may not be able to hear the song because some idiots kept exceeding the allocated bandwidth by loading the song continuosly.If you want to listen to songs repeatedly,my site is definitely not the ideal place.Go pay $0.90 for a song in those legal music sites and listen till you shuang okay?I'm only allowed 30MB for my bandwidth daily and I think its real pathetic.

20mins more to the opening match of the World Cup!That explains why the number of contacts online right now is halved the usual amount.Guess all the guys are out in the MacDonalds or in their homes glued to the black box and anticipating the arrival of 22 men chasing after a ball.Weird creatures are they.Hmm..I'm bored.Perhaps I should be weird for once and see how fascinating it will be to watch men chasing a ball..

Revamped my blog!Nice??I've decided to change the song because Tainted Love doesn't really fit into the theme haha.Will put up new ROCK songs every 2 days too.But don't keep refreshing your page because it will wipe dry my bandwidth=@ Hmm shall blog more later,ciao!

Hey back from my PW meeting.My legs are aching badly now even though I didn't really walk that much today.Hmm this reminds me of a lovey dovey sentence that my lovesick friends alway used-'Your legs must be aching now because you keep running in my mind'.So who is thinking of me?Okay I'm thinking of myself=

Had lunch with my PW members at Pizza Hut near West Mall.Being someone with zero sense of direction,I actually hunt down the whole West Mall for it.After like 20mins,Chong Min enlightened me that Pizza Hut is just opposite the MRT.Hmm well,didn't know that I'm that blind haha.Oh well,the shop was like an oven,so hot!I was fanning myself madly and wondered why it didn't rain.Perhaps heaven is no longer feeling sad for me haha.Whatever.

I guess pizzas are the only food that can make me feel bloated.Till now,I can still feel the bits and pieces of my pizza swiming in my stomach.Felt like eating instant noodles for fun now.Sometimes I do silly things for fun.For example,I would wash my hair three times a day to see how straight my hair can be.Or I'll challenge myself to see how many bottles of plain water I could drink in one day.Yah I agree its very boliao.

I wanna watch The Omen!Think its the movie that suits my character most haha.I suspect that there are afew demons around me now.Wonder how they looked like?Are they really that scary looking?Would like to see one for myself!I think maybe the demon might faint when it sees me haha.Because I think I look worse than them.Okay I think I'm sprouting nonsense...

My friend told me that liking someone from the same gender is considered infatuation.Can someone help me check up the meaning of infatuation?

Yoz I'm back!=)Combing my hair now and I have the tendency to cut it reeaaal short.My hair is out of condition and look really unkempt.Bad hair day..

Yay my Marilyn Manson song is up again!Turn down your speakers haha.Well felt really lazy today and I only managed to read up 7 pages of my Photosynthesis notes before succumbing to death's counterfeit.Read up this week's issue of Time magazine too.Kinda refreshing to read up on something real and serious haha.

Gonna do PW with my group tomorrow at Jade.I think we are kinda cheapskate because none of us is a tenant at Jade and yet we have the audacity to use its meeting room haha.Hope we come up with something productive instead of crapping around..

Hey I've look up for the lyrics of Marilyn Manson's Tainted Love(the one that is playing here right now) and I find it kinda cool.Great for someone who feel that the love he has had given is not appreciated.Here it is:

Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love... oh
Tainted love

Now I know I've got to
Run away
I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
Need someone to hold you tight
And you'll think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love... oh
Tainted love

Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you Tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Touch me baby, tainted love (x4)

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love... oh
Tainted love
tainted love(x4)


A worldly song indeed.But sometimes they do make alot of sense..

Is my previous entry that ambiguous?There are some people who has confronted me as to whether they are the person I'm referring to.I was like, 'huh??' DIAO!!Am I really that bad in expressing myself?I don't think so leh..

I'm astonished by the number of people who has visited my blog ever since I've posted about liking that person.Haiz,now the bandwidth has been exceeded and I can't put up the Marilyn Manson song that I'm currently hooked on and my pictures!Never mind,at least people bother to listen to my rants haha.

I've lied to some of you haha.I'm actually quite IT savvy leh.Just that I'm too lazy to do certain things or simply can't be bothered to.But I don't like IT stuffs,especially Infocomm lol.I think some of you should know why la..

Feeling kinda okay now.Initially I regretted posting that entry but guess it will stop my boliaoness ba.I'm sorry if I kept bugging you people because I'm abit mad one.Please forgive me!=(Got to reply Flo now.AND CALL WEN!=)

THIS ENTRY IS EDITED(I THINK IM SUCH A FAILURE IN LIFE-COPY AND PASTE ALSO WILL COPY WRONGLY >.<)

(Keeping my fingers crossed that this entry could be posted up)

Received a reply from Flo regarding my problem.Her answer is pretty much expected,in the sense that it is the model answer in my opinion.Hmm,I guess her answer represents the religious point of view on this matter.

To sum things up,she told me to stop indulging or even fantasizing about him/her as the Bible disapproved it.She also said that the weird thoughts I'm having now is not my own but from spirits whispering to me.Finally,she told me to break off all contacts with him/her so that I can stop all these indulgence.The truth really hurts and I think Flo is spot on in the solution of my problem.Sighs,didn't expect things to turn out this way.I guess the person is still clueless that there is someone who kinda like him/her.Actually its good that he/she don't know,at least he/she can lead his/her life proper and don't have to talk to me just for the sake of doing it.

Sounds noble eh?I think I simply blow up the whole issue,haha!Think its due to the fact that I like creating problems for myself and think too much when the matter can be resolved easily.Out of the 8 people I had surveyed,7 of them told me not to confess.The same reason.The odd one out told me to confess because its good to let my 'crush' know that there is someone who keep him/her in her thoughts during his/her hardest time.Make sense but I guess I'm selfish to a certain extent.HAHA!And I think its totally not me ba.

Counting down now.I'm going to do what Flo has asked me to.Breaking off contact sounds insane and exaggerated but I think it may cause me to feel less miserable.GOD,WHY I THINK SO MUCH??!!ITS JUST A SIMPLE 'CRUSH' ON SOMEONE(or maybe not even a crush)>.< Haiz,Pat,you are so stupid la.Do you think the person even bother whether you are feeling sad?You are just someone who happen to pass by,an insignificant fellow.Man,I sound crazy.Perhaps I'm now.Well,think you are my 'crush'?Lets play detective!

Loophole number
One:I used he/she,him/her,his/her throughout my entry.
Two:The Bible disapprove my thoughts.
Three:I kept saying it will contradict to my belief.For those who know me well,I used to be anti-_____

Thats about it!I think the clues are sufficient haha,if you are alert,I think you may realise its you ba.I'll leave it to affinity.

Bye ___,nice knowing you =)

My mind's unweaving/ 12:57 AM

Sunday, June 04, 2006

I'm really disappointed with myself.Really.

I wished that I would not do things that will contradict to my thinking and end up feeling miserable and hapless about it.I wished that I act according to what I preached and be someone NORMAL.I wished this and that but apparently,I'm failing all these.Why?I don't think its peer influence because generally,my friends are more prudish than I am.

What caused me to have these feelings towards someone whom I thought lead an improbable lifestyle and of one which I disapprove of?I'm trying not to make it too obvious because I'm unsure about my feelings as well.Maybe I don't feel that way to that person at all and is just being over reactive about it.Sometimes I doubt over my feelings.I suspect maybe I' m not human after all but just a robot that a scientist has created 17 years ago.The difference being he accidentally/intentionally 'injected' distorted emotions in it.Thats why I would behave like this now,being so morbid and always contradicting myself.

Back to the topic,I seriously hope that the person(or victim) whom I have 'weird'(can't think of a better word to replace it) feelings to would never find out about it.I would not want to scare him/her nor do I wanna lose him/her as a friend.Moreover,I think he/she is already very contented with his/her life and I should not be a spoiler and disrupt it.I hate to be in the losing end(nobody loves it,unless you are a pure breed sadist) but I guess no matter what I do,I'll still remain as what I am now.There are things which you can't force in life,like forcing someone to like you,which is what I am trying to prevent myself from doing now.Fate and reality really caused me heavy losses,in terms of emotional well being and time.When you are in my state of mind,you will find yourself doing and thinking of really stupid things which are not worth mentioning.

I'm starting to dislike myself.I think I have a rubbish and distorted mind.I succumb too easily to negative temptations,things that I don't really see or experience.Am I trying to break free from my current lifestyle?Why is it that I would have such thinking?Do I like him/her just because I find him/her 'unusual' and someone whom I don't often meet?Does that translate to love?What is love?So many questions in a vexed and tired soul.I'm ashamed of myself.I thought it will just be fun but in the end,I can't control my mind.Love at first sight is so crap!I hope I don't make it too obvious now because I got no intentions whatsoever to let him/her know about it.I'm afraid that one day when he/she know about it,he/she would avoid me forever.Even if he/she doesn't,well,the friendship would not be as close as before.That's how sad life can be.Rejections,how I hate it!

Pity me all you want,I've never thought I will behave this way.If you ask me 1 week ago whether I will like/him,my answer will be a firm 'NO'.I wished I've never agreed to 'blah blah blah'(can't really tell you in detailed).I'll just be contented living my simple and ordinary lifestyle,doing homework,mugging,gossiping about others etc.Now I think I'm exaggerating this issue.Haiz,I really think too much nowadays.Guess my ice queen image can't be maintained any longer.

I felt much better after typing an email to Flo about this issue.Hmm,wonder whether she will be harsh in her reply?My oh my,am I really Patricia?Hope I'm really exaggerating about this matter and forget about it soon.It is just not healthy ba.Hope this entry is not too obvious.I will die if anything happens.

My mind's unweaving/ 12:18 AM

Saturday, June 03, 2006

ON YOUR SPEAKERS!

Hey ya!Didnt managed to post an entry last night as my sister need to use the computer and I just simply lost the mood to blog too.Shall recount what I did yesterday=)

Slept till 3.45pm in the afternoon(like duh, 'pm' right).Dressed up in my starchy and brown JJ full uniform.I realised that my shirt seemed oversized now,don't tell me I shrank??Being the unhygienic person,I didn't bother to bathe or even wash my face.Haha.Walk faster than usual to the MRT,think I took around 7 mins,4 mins shorter than my average walking time.Met my PW group at the control station.Oh did I tell you what was I going to do in my full uniform?Actually we are suppose to conduct surveys once again with people working in the workforce and service industry.Our destinated place this time is Raffles Place.

We were kinda tensed up even though it was not our first time.Everybody is afraid of rejections,I guess.We went to this area between UOB centre and this really majestic looking building.I should say that the yuppies working in Raffles Place are generally friendlier than those from City Hall.Doing surveys with them was a breeze for me,haha.Kinda ironic because being an insecure person,I tend to be wary of strangers and don't usually initiate to talk to them.Haha maybe they pity me for looking so scared in front of them.Actually I think its true,because I look as though I'm in front of a firing squad lol.Oh ya,one of the people my group members surveyed is an employee from the United Nations!Cool eh..Thankfully we completed our mission rather fast because practically the whole area was choking with smoke.Didn't know that so many young adults smoked nowadays eh.Saw a couple of pretty ladies smoking like nobody business too.Don't you think its totally unglam??Wondered how many cubic centimetres of second hand smoke I have inhaled.Then again,I kinda like inhaling those smoke,okay,I know its gross..

We hunt the commercial buildings looking for a place to dine.By then,the sky is darkening.We finally settle at Delifrance after much discussions.Haha,oh ya do you know that our group has like the worst English grades for our O Levels?We always find it very challenging to rephrase the sentences in our project and stuff.Imagine us trying to pronounce the name of the dishes in delifrance lol.Anyway,Chong Min helped me order my sandwiches and manz,my stomach nearly burst after eating it la.It is so filling and huge lor.Haha I love listening to Chong Min and Weng Kin!We were laughing like there is no tomorrow throughout the day la.Chong Min ask Weng Kin a very interesting question-How do guys urinate?I'm surprised she din't know how guys urinate because I thought the answer will come to you naturally?Anyway all of us were tickled pink when WK tried to explain to us step by step.Hmm,don't ask me how I know,I don't go around peeping at other guys in the toilet okay!I just know la..Hard to explain,you see..

Can't tell you much of our conversation because I don't think its suitable for kiddos under 16 viewing my blog.People usually comment that I'm a pure,innocent and naive girl.Is this how you guys think I'm really am?I find that stereotype super funny la,must be me sending the wrong signals.Sometimes,the most innocent/prudish people usually shocked you the most,beware okie?Ya,I'm telling you to beware of me la.You may never know whats really beneath me.I hasn't unleashed my demons yet.Not any sooner I hope.

My mind's unweaving/ 12:49 PM

Friday, June 02, 2006

Good morning!Yawnz still sleepy but decided to wake up since I'm feeling hungry and thirsty.Shall tell you about my experience with SHUYI yesterday muahaha..

Met her at Woodlands at 6.16pm and I can't stop laughing the moment I see her and heard her voice.What can I say,she looked like a typical model student la.Studious,teacher's pet,mummy/daddy's girl, and most important of all,she is GIRLY=)Her voice is very cute, definitely more girly than mine,those type that guys would like la.But her appearance doesn't really match her voice LOL.Can't stop laughing again you see.Overall she is a nice girl la,would be a very good mother in the future I supposed.

Didn't read up my lecture notes yet again!Argh,so disappointed with myself.End up sleeping rather early yesterday.Surprisingly,no nightmares leh!Whoa can't believed it=) Thought I will dream of Shuyi with her girly voice lol.Am I being very bad here?I hope I don't go overboard haha.

Well,Yoda told me that she might consider shelving the plans to help out in the Salvation Army.Haiz,my holidays will be so sian!Thought of calling Wen and meet up with her one of these days since its been aeons from the time we last met.Her hair must be extremely long now!So xian mu.Felt real bad not initiating to call her and chat with her in the past.I think she is one of the few people that I could chat with for hours without feeling any hint of phobia.Ya,should call her soon!

Feng,I'm so over you!Probably the best decision I ever make this year.Wonder whether I should call Flo and clarify things with her again.I felt guilty cutting off ties with her unnecessarily.Its so crazy la,whenever I have problems,I will think of her first.Why arh?Is God hinting something to me.Perhaps,He wants me to be friends with her again?Hmm,no harm trying right?

My mind's unweaving/ 9:30 AM