Thursday, June 07, 2007
The PW gang truly rocks.Thanks Chongmin,Wengkin and Wendy for bringing me out to 'san san xing'(it means to de-emo yourself).Definitely felt much better after hearing much laughters and cranky conversations=).I wished i could be as happy and contented in life as you guys!I need a guardian angel.Maths US Program tomorrow.I'm so dead because i've only studied vectors out of so many topics.But nevermind,think positively.I have 7 hours to study for the remaining topics(provided i sleep at 3am).Yay,for once i'm not emo!Oh keep peering at my homework again and i'll gouge your eyes out like what The Creeper did to Darry's.Pest.
My mind's unweaving/ 8:02 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Guan says,in this little world,we can only depend on ourselves.I find it very true.I'm currently suffering an emotional rollercoaster.So many things happened around me and it simply overwhelm me.I find it hard to fight back my tears when i'm experiencing one of those moments which no one could ever comprehend.Its a personal thing and different people felt it differently.Some may choose to ignore it so that they won't get hurt in return,others just simply feels that its silly and emo.Well at least i choose to do it alone by myself so that nobody would be affected by my incessant sobs and staring-into-space.Well actually crying really helps to relieve all the tension in you.I'm feeling slightly better now.Sometimes i really don't know why things has to go one way or the other for me,and why things can go so smoothly for other individuals.Why others can be so afraid of authorities when i don't even give a damn about it.Why others choose to be optimistic all the times when there is a chance for them to be pessimistic for once.Why people choose to live in denial about their crush etc.I really don't understand those people.And they don't understand me too.I think we may never understand each other.I want people to understand me.I think i'm a nice person.If you treat me good,i will treat you ten times better.But so far,there are few people whom i feel deserve those treatment from me.I feel more warmth from strangers than those so called friends sometimes.I feel that people whom are not closest to me(other than my family) cares more about me than others whom i always hang out with(an exception:the pw gang).They are the people who knows my life even though i don't divulge much to them and they are the ones that shows their care through their words and actions.Ironic,isn't it?I'm going to the camp not because i agree with what choun eng(in fact i disagree with what she says and i sort of hate her now) says but because of Jennifer.I think she would be the only person i would be talking to for the whole camp.
My mind's unweaving/ 1:16 AM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Try walking around in heels from 10am to 8pm.It almost killed me.Went out with the PW gang today.The 'dress code' was skirt and heels and it was definitely not my type of dressing but i heed it anyway.Met them at C'wealth mrt at 10am(madness!) and we trained down to Marina Square.Watched Pirates and i was sorta lost at some parts of the movie because i didn't watch part two but anyway i think the movie was alright even though the straits time gave it two out of five stars.We shopped till 7plus in the evening after the movie!And it was kinda weird because Wengkin had to followed us and i knew guys and shopping doesn't click.But i think it was very nice of him to accompany us and i don't think i have the patience to do so if i'm a guy.All in all,i bought a purple top from Topshop(my sis says its ugly:/),a complicated blouse looking top from some shop,two necklaces and three hairbands.I think i blew quite a sum of money but nothing compared to Chong Min and Wendy haha.Oh and of course i'm thankful that they asked me out because i had so much fun!Thank affinity for being the same group as them=) Hmm,and after being with them for quite some time,i've discovered that each of them have their distinct strengths.Wengkin-very easy going.Can talk about girls topics with him without feeling embarassed.Chong Min-very outgoing and sociable.Someone that is not pretentious or anything.Wendy-very meticulous and streetsmart.I've noticed that she remembered which shops we have gone to and all the details.As for me,i'm still finding my strength!Hope to find it soon haha.Alright,i must force myself to study.Camp from tues to fri and mid year is coming round the corner.I'm desperate for help in maths!Somebody help me=(
My mind's unweaving/ 1:11 AM
Friday, June 01, 2007
Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain.... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again My favourite stanza from Cradle of Filth's Nymphetamine.
My mind's unweaving/ 7:05 PM
