I'm always having writer's block when I blog so pardon me if my entries are full of grammar,vocabulary,spelling or whatever mistakes,you nerds.

Alright,as usual,I'm so gonna complain!People usually detest girls who whine but I'm so not going to care!I MUST VENT MY ANGER ARGH!Okay,I have a whole lot of Chemistry tutorials to do again and till now,I still can't get hold of the concepts.I meant,I pay attention during lectures and tutorials but nothing goes inside my head.What to do?!I'm going to revise my Chem later and I must make sure that I can understand everything man.My aim is to get A for my promos this year.I can do it(mark my words)!

School has been okay for me.However,I still can't really adjust to JJ's culture.To me,the way the students behave there is like completely different from what I expected and hope for.My classmates are friendly and nice,but I still feel kinda empty even when I laugh along with them and have fun.Its like,something isn't right.They don't have that something that I'm looking for.What is that something?I don't even know it myself.I just know that I'm thinking too much again and randoms thoughts keep running through my head.Sighs,am I normal?

Sometimes,I'm VERY afraid of myself.I don't feel and behave like a normal human.I can have really morbid and schzophrenic thoughts at times,especially when I'm feeling depressed.

I suspect I still like____.Okay,lets call him Feng from now on.I think perhaps what I have for him is not love.Wait,I'm contradicting myself.Oh heck.This is how I feel.I love it when I see him having problems with his life and studies.I adore the fact that he is poor and I hope that he can be like that for the rest of his life.I relished when I see him having emotional struggles.Why will I feel this way?When you like someone,you hoped for the best for that person right?Why am I not hoping that he will succeed in life?Why do I enjoy seeing him downcasted and depressed?Why I hope that he will end up being a computer technician and earn a measly pay of 1K per month?Man,this is not love right?But why do I insist that I like him?Is there anything in him worth falling for?The answer is no.But he had been running in my mind ever since I saw him with her.I'm a sicko.

Should I forgive her?I bet you guys don't know what I'm talking about.Sometimes ignorance is bliss.I wished that I don't know about those stuffs and live my normal and simple kind of life.A life whereby I just do homework,study hard for my subjects and occasionally a cup of coffee or lunch with my friends.I don't want to know that Feng is now with her and stuff because even though there is nothing significant in it,it just keep bugging me.In fact,I'm starting to hallucinate.My mind just went wild when the simplest thought of it pop in my mind.I try not to think about it but the more I prevent myself to think about it,the more I will remember of it.Its driving me crazy.I can't believe I saw them near Buona Vista MRT from my BUS!!!I meant,what is the probability of seeing them walking down that particular stretch of road at a particular time and day from a freaking bus??!Normally I will just dozed off in the bus but at that particualr friday,I spotted them the moment I open my eyes and accidentally gazed out of the window.So do I call this fate?Its so freaking coincidental!At that instance,I almost become a mad woman.Laugh all you want.

Ok,I am gonna salvage my Chem now as well as sending a sms to her.Hope nothing goes wrong.Bye!