I chanced upon a christmas card sent by her last year when I was clearing up my wardrobe.This is what she wrote:

''Friendship plant story?Let me tell you sth.Every gardener eishes he/she could be the plant,enjoying the sun,no worries.Well pat,I pray the friendship plant between us will never die no matter what happens.I know your mood always changes,but believe me,I have experienced alot these 3 years.So whatever the problem/depressed you are and you don't feel like talking,please please write 2 me.I love to hear from you.About yourmlife and I.I promise only 2 listen n never interfere.I hope you can trust me after so long.You are the only fren that had never change with the season.And,I love U!,especially your 'lame-ness''.no one can replace!=)

Hi!Thanks 4 being my great fren these 3 years.I never regret knowing you.I can still remember our chinese lessons which were free periiods,our recesses together,our morale education projects together.Through it all,I've come 2 knowyou more.And frankly I must say,you have a very very unique talent in u though you may not realised it.In that,no one can compete with u because no one will ever win.So pat,you must always be yourself no matter how the world competes to be the best.In my life,you are the best and no1 can replace.Remember the <3.

Loving u always,
_______=)

I felt guilty reading what she wrote in the card.We became enemies soon after the card was sent due to some misunderstandings.Are they misunderstandings?Or was it just my immature understanding of the whole matter?I wanted to befriend her again but I'm afraid of her status now.Is she still with Feng?I don't want her to be with him!If I'm her friend,she should break up with him for my sake right?

Perhaps I'm just plain selfish.