Death can be so sudden and heart-breaking.

My Dad just called and cried.This is the first time that I heard him crying.My grandmother had passed away at 6.09pm.It was all so sudden and apparently,my Dad and his siblings are all taken aback by it.3 months ago,I've visited her and she was alive and well,even though she looked haggard.Then suddenly,she died in the hospital due to a fall.I never expected her to pass away that early,I meant,she was already 80plus,but she was a strong and fierce woman.I've always remember that during my childhood days,I would always go to her house and sat on the swings near it.Surrounding the swings were a picturesque garden,full of beautiful purple flowers.The evening mist never fails to create a sense of mystery in the air.This scene is like the setting in my favourite storybook during my childhood days-The Secret Garden.Oh my,how I wished I could return back to those times,when I knew nothing about love and life,and would only know how to enjoy my life with my then youthful parents..

I really hate it when people all around me started to passed away.Its a really horrible feeling.I have had two close relatives that passed away this year.Sometimes I really wonder when my time will come.Life is full of unpredictable events,an accident or a stroke could just take your life in a matter of seconds.Illnesses like cancer takes longer,and personally I prefer the former,whereby I have lesser time to recall all the unpleasant moments in life and thus less physical and mental sufferings.Of course,I would utmost choose to die of old age,preferably in my sleep,so that I can leave the world in my secret garden.If I die due to an accident,then my last moments will much preferred to be spent in the arms of my loved ones,especially my mum and whoever that will be my partner in life.Then hopefully I will leave the world without much hatred or regrets.

Then again,I tend to have really morbid and unconventional thoughts regarding to death.Human tends to fantasize alot,especially when they are alone or bored.I've thought of a manner to die,but it sounds really sadistic and certainly not for those who are sencetive.It cannot happen in reality though,but no harm thinking about it.

Here it goes.It is close to sunset where the skies are getting gloomier.A black car will just bump onto me.Then I'll flipped gracefully over the car and land with a soft thud on the ground.My head will be face up but slightly tilt to the left.My arms and legs will be slightly outstretched too.I will be wearing a white dress with pink floral patterns and white pumps.A great pool of blood will start forming around me.Just then,thunders boomed,as though to grief for my death.Raindrops will then start falling on the mortal earth before it turns to a downpour,diluting the pool of blood as a result.I want my skin to look freaky pale at the scene as well.Hmm,and I want all this to be witnessed by Feng.Everyone will stare at me,including him.Wow,what a way to die...