I think my life is utmost miserable.

My mum was on the phone with her friend just now and she was already planning on how to get a divorce with my Dad?Her evidence right now was a photo of my Dad caught in his act.Wah kaoz this sucks real bad.

She is trying to 'catch' my Dad again and she told me not to tip him off or else she will give me afew tight slaps?I don't know what to feel right now.Should I be feeling upset because my parents really screwed up their life and in turn,caused mine to be screwed as well,or should I be feeling glad that there is going to be a fullstop to these nonsenses?The cliche saying that the children suffer the most in a divorced family is true.I'm now beginning to feel the pain.

My sis is still sleeping at this hour and she is still oblivious to the fact that my parents will go separate ways real soon.Well she is hardly at home and the happy-go-lucky sort so I guess it is inevitable that she didn't noticed the tension in the air.Well can't blame her.Actually I hope I can be like her,being much 'cooler' and less tensed up.I wished that I would not worried about whats happening around me and mind my own business instead.Haiz.

Did I bore you guys?In the depressed mode now.Well not exactly that depressed,just that if I don't get into that mode now,I will feel kinda guilty that I'm not doing anything to help my parents.Really admire you people whom are born with a silver spoon in your mouth and has a happy family.You guys can afford to learn many things when you are young and has a shelter which you can be proud of.Yet you people can still complain about not having this and that.Hmm,wait till you are in my shoes.

Nobody will understand what I had gone through so far.Do you know that I had to be seperated from my parents at a tender age and live in a hostel for girls with problematic families when my parents first started their war with each other?I have simply no chance to learn how to ride a bike,learn how to swim or play with soft toys or barbie dolls.All I could do was to do my homework or talk to myself.When I was finally released from the prison,I still don't get the chance as my parents simply don't have the money.Well,I don't blame them,just that I felt that my childhood was rather deprived.Haha,I guess some of you guys are shocked right?I don't usually tell people about my life story,but I felt this is the best time to let you guys share my sorrows..

Hmm,my friends commented that my temper is abit off nowadays.Sorry,really don't mean it.Please tolerate it for the time being okay?I just don't like to be pretentious,going around putting a mask telling others how happy I am(Side note:Nep just disrupt my thoughts this moment) when I'm nursing my wounds inside.I show what I'm feeling and if you see me with a black face,remember to give in to me=) (okay I just contradict myself somehow by putting that smiley)

Going to shop for Yo's birthday present with TE tomorrow.Really pissed off with her again so I tell TE the budget for her present this year is going to be ten bucks.Haha mean right?Don't care!Those who offended me will suffer.Anyway sincerity is the one that counts right?Hmm..