Reformatted my computer!Took like 3 hours to complete everything??Well at least I can post up my entries now without the fear of my computer being jammed.

Practically slacked the whole day.I'm so not motivated to do my homework and study!If this goes on,I think I will have to repeat JC1 again.Argh,somebody point a gun at my head and pull the trigger okay.I need to be shot.

I'm in the worst of all moods now,pardon me if I sound rude.I'm worried for my mental health you know.Basically I behaved like a madwoman when I'm angered or offended and there is no stop to it until I get really exhausted metally or physically.I think my temperamental nature is due to the genes that I had inherited.Both my parents have really nasty temper so (un)fortunately,I also kenna.I'm worried that I will make a fool out of myself when I get into that 'trance' so currently,I'm trying to be more tolerance of the things around me.

Sometimes I really think that I'm a little loose in my head.Like for example,I will get really fed up when I'm being ignored or when someone passed a harmless remark like,'I don't think so leh'.I will really flare when those things accumulate unintentionally/intentionally.Even when I knew that it wasn't that person(s)' fault,I will still want to be angry with them because I felt that it was my right to be angry and they should make up for my unhappiness because they are the ones that 'instigate' me to be angry.Argh!

Now I don't even know what I'm angry about.I got irritated by people around me easily.Sometimes I felt that the people I'm with are not being thoughtful to me.Can't they just please me or something?Being the emotional sort(very contradictory to my behaviour),I would just shut myself out from people easily.I don't want to waste my tears on people who aren't worth it.

I know it is very inconsiderate and definitely un-gentlemanly to 'scold' your friends in your blog but I buay tahan already!I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE BEING LATE!!!I'm not pin pointing anyone(but maybe I will still pick out certain individuals) but I'm addressing this in general.If you go out with me,DON'T BE LATE!Or you will see me sulking the whole day as though the whole world owns me money.Now I'm going to be real nasty.Two days ago,I went out with Yo and her sister,Tianen and Nep.I arrived punctually by the way.Tianen was late for 15mins(at least he told me beforehand that he is going to be late,but actually I don't really see the use of it).I was slightly pissed off but not that much yet.Then I waited like 45mins for Yo and her sister?!!!And worst of all I didn't eat anything for the whole day because I was broke.If not for her sister,I will erupt like a volcano and be a real scary girl.I mean,based on their intellect,they should know what is being time concious right?This is not the first time I have waited longer than 45mins for her and reminded her about it lor!I just don't feel justified.Man,now I really feel pissed when I think about it. Yeah,I'm real petty,and I'm fine being one.

Enough of my rants.Okay I have thoughts of starting another but I think its time to exercise some self restraint.Argh why am I so mad at everyone??Guess there is too much hatred in my heart.I wished that I can be like Mother Theresa,ever so peaceful and calm,no vengeance and whatever so.How I wished I could be a baby,so innocent and ignorant.Hmm..

Received a sms from Wen.Here it goes:
I use my mum hp...Today is my birthday,i wish that God will bless you and help you in every area of yr life!When u free?Are u free this coming sat?wanna come to church?i really long time never see u liao..i know that you dun really feel like coming,but just wanna let u know tt God loves u!

Mixed emotions I had.Initially I felt the anger rising in my stomach because she asked me to go church!But after a while,I checked the details of the message and realised that she reserved her birthday wishes for me at the stroke of midnight on her birthday.Felt abit touched la,and guilty because I've actually forgotten about her birthday.Sighs,maybe its time for me to be more thoughtful to others as well.I've discovered that I'm the sort that:-

1.Don't remember birthdays
2.Never initiate to call others
3.Don't like to initiate a conversation on msn
4.Scold others for no apparent reason
5.Have a tendency to complain about others and in some cases,being found out by them(hehehe)

GREAT,just told Hon Mun something 'disturbing' about myself.He told me to expect a phone call from him this morning?And its like the 4515444166356th time that I've told him about my distaste on talking on the phone?