Wednesday, December 13, 2006
My sore throat is back again because i ate 50g of milo powder straight from the tin.I think im having insomia these few days as i can't get to sleep until the wee hours of the night so i end up watching the Doha games and the repeated telecast of the Amazing Race.Super crappy i guess but there is nothing much i can do.Anyway was suppose to go Malaysia with mumsy today but i was lazy so i refused to wake up.Felt real guity after that so i promised that i will accompany her this thursday.I'm was feeling rather troubled just now because i kept worrying unnecessarily over school matters but i got better now after managing to convince myself that i should not compare myself with others and that its good if i do my best in my capability instead of worrying whether others will outshine you in the academic or whatever aspects.You understand what i'm trying to say?Perhaps you may be thinking that this mindset will not get you far in this increasingly competitive world where everything follows Darwin's rule,but won't you find contentment in something that you REALLY like to do even though others might think its lowly or negligible?For instance,majority of the people here mug like theres no tomorrow just so that they can get into a university and land themselves into 'good prospect' courses like Medicine,Law or Engineering(okay i admit i use to think that way too).Have they ever question themselves as to whether that is what they really wants?I mean,don't pursue things just for the status,money or even your parents.Do something that you think you really really have an interest in.I'm still in search of it and i will keep you posted as to what it is.End of lecture.Felt the urge to go swimming now!I was really inspired to swim well when i watched those tanned swimmers doing their stuff at the Asian games on TV.Well,i'm a slow learner with a little phobia of deep waters so right now i'm still struggling with the basics.But i think it will not be long when i can compete with my friends haha.Do you think its weird for someone to go swimming alone?I feel like doing that later because i think its a drag to go swimming with someone who can't swim well(in view of a swimmer's perspective).But at the same time its weird to go swimming alone because you looked really retarded going in and out of the complex alone and swimming by yourself in the pool without a person to talk to.Then you will think that you are so pitiful and you start composing emo proses in your head and perhaps cry while you do so.So how?Okay ignore the previous sentence it wasn't suppose to make sense.I think i'm off to revise my Chemistry.Yes,at this time.Anyway i can't sleep so hopefully i will doze off after finishing one chapter of it.Sweet dreams.
My mind's unweaving/ 3:12 AM
